As we were comparing self-love stories over text message the other night, my friend put my/our journey very eloquently, “Self-love is such a tricky bitch.” Today, while another friend and I we were swimming in the ocean and talking about self-love, she also had a pretty spot-on insight; “It’s definitely more than speaking nicely to yourself and taking rose-petal-filled baths.” She is right, there is more to it, but what is it? What is it about this tricky little bitch that can be so layered?
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Another eye-opener for me when working with my Throat Chakra was identifying a pattern of anxiety. I noticed that often times my anxiety was a direct link (like setting off an alarm) to moments of me not speaking my truth. While anxiety and depression can be very scary, they can also be tools to help us identify moments in our lives when we are out of alignment with our greatest potential. A lesson I am still learning is that the authentic me is far more powerful than the me who tries to control and manipulate and I will never reach my fullest potential until I show who *I am*. Which leads me to a couple other lessons from my sea star:
Is it time to try something different?
Are you following your own star? Are you flaunting your own colors?
Fast forward to when I was eighteen years old and living in Hawaii. I had left on my first solo adventure and was doing work-trade to spend a summer on an organic pineapple farm in the rainforest of Maui. A lot of magic occurred that summer but one pivotal day was when I found myself swimming among a group of 5-7 sea turtles. They glided by and around me in the middle of the ocean and my heart swelled so much, I fell deeply in love. The day before I flew home from my adventure, I went to a tattoo artist with the sketch he had created for me weeks prior and had him ink my right foot with the Polynesian turtle who solidified my admiration for these creatures on my physical body. Knowing what I know now, I would have simply told my father, “Monsieur Tortois made me do it!” when he threatened to disown me for breaking his number one rule: no tattoos.
What you learn through doing this work is that your animals come to you because they can show you what you a) already possess and b) what qualities they possess, that they're going to share with you to make you whole. These qualities in part b) already exist within you, the animals are there to help you reawaken what may have been sleeping a little too long for your highest good :) I mention this aspect of the program as it relates to joy because this is one of my biggest lessons: if you are happy and joyful, your light will shine so bright that you will be far more successful than if you work yourself 90 hours a week but you are unhappy. On some level, those around you, whether it be your family, friends, lover, clients, and so on, know when you are authentically happy and it's contagious and they will want to be around you or be doing whatever you are doing. Happiness is good for business. If you are without joy, you will be stuck... you have got to be happy to evolve.